Fear, Faith and Wisdom.
Today I sit in front of my computer... It's just past midnight..... I have just finished my online shopping and stared at my screen knowing I have to go to bed now or I will be to tired tomorrow to go do the shopping but I find myself lacking the desire to get up and walk to bed... I just want to do something else... So I thought... I always wish that I have written more... much more... so why not do that now? I don't even know what to write but at the same time I feel like I can write for a 100 years. Do I write about my life? What I think? Only the controversial stuff? My kids? My marriage? My faith? It seems like all of them are intertwined but at the same time like all of them have a life of their own.... My life has been very hard the last 5 years. It has made me more grey but hopefully also more wise? It has been a lonely 5 years. It seems to get better now with the loneliness but the uneasy feeling I am having about the future just doesn't want to leave....